I observed observe in this last part of his discourse discourse , which was truly prophetic , though I suppose my father did not know it to be so himself — I say , I observed observe the tears tear run down his face very plentifully , especially when he spoke speak of my brother who was killed kill : and that when he spoke speak of my having leisure to repent , and none to assist me , he was so moved move that he broke break off the discourse discourse , and told tell me his heart was so full he could say no more to me .

I observed observe in this last part of his discourse discourse , which was truly prophetic , though I suppose my father did not know it to be so himself — I say , I observed observe the tears tear run down his face very plentifully , especially when he spoke speak of my brother who was killed kill : and that when he spoke speak of my having leisure to repent , and none to assist me , he was so moved move that he broke break off the discourse discourse , and told tell me his heart was so full he could say no more to me .

I was sincerely affected affect with this discourse discourse , and , indeed , who could be otherwise ?

This put my mother into a great passion passion ; she told tell me she knew it would be to no purpose to speak to my father upon any such subject ; that he knew too well what was my interest to give his consent to anything so much for my hurt ; and that she wondered wonder how I could think of any such thing after the discourse discourse I had had with my father , and such kind and tender expressions expression as she knew my father had used to me ; and that , in short , if I would ruin myself , there was no help for me ; but I might depend I should never have their consent to it ; that for her part she would not have so much hand in my destruction ; and I should never have it to say that my mother was willing when my father was not .

Though my mother refused refuse to move it to my father , yet I heard hear afterwards that she reported report all the discourse discourse to him , and that my father , after showing a great concern concern at it , said say to her , with a sigh sigh , “ That boy might be happy if he would stay at home ; but if he goes abroad , he will be the most miserable wretch that ever was born : I can give no consent to it . ”